Being pregnant is not easy, unless you are one of those girls that doesn’t know she is pregnant until the baby plops out into the toilet. I would say that for most women, for me for sure, pregnancy makes things harder rather than easier. It is very magical to be pregnant, but it is quite the physical and emotional roller coaster. A little over one year ago I found myself on this roller coaster of a ride for the 4th time. I wasn’t really ready, but apparently Spirit knows more than I do about being me being ready for a baby. A few years before this pregnancy I had a planned pregnancy that ended in a second trimester miscarriage. A year before that I had an early first trimester miscarriage. The experience of these two miscarriages left me feeling like I was really fine with never getting pregnant again. I was pretty sure that I didn’t want another baby and I was definitely NOT going to plan on getting pregnant ever again, two dead babies was enough for me. When I found myself with child I was surprised, annoyed that it didn’t happen when I wanted it to happen, and super excited. I had been saying that if I ever did get pregnant again that it would have to be a surprise, well surprise.
I had just put in my notice to quit my job so that I could focus more on other things, like my career and my family. When I quit my job I thought I would just be writing more, but pregnant, wow! There I was trying to focus on my life and pregnant, of course, haha. I can’t complain to much really, Spirit, being ever present, gave me exactly what I needed when I needed it. I mean, there is really no better way for me to focus more on my career and my family than to experience a pregnancy and birth. I wasn’t scared of miscarrying for some reason, I guess it just felt right. I knew exactly what I wanted for this pregnancy and birth too. My past experiences taught me a lot about how I wanted to go about being pregnant and planning the birth.
Pregnancy is a big deal. It requires you to do everything you need to do while your body is working 10 times harder. I was lucky that we were already planning on me not having a job. It was going to be great to be able to just be pregnant and not have to worry about working. I actually still ended up working 2 days a week until I was 6 months along, and my job was crazy. After those two days of work I had to recover by eating a lot and resting for like 2 days. What I am trying to say is pregnancy is no joke. Pregnancy is different than normal. Your entire life is changing, forever. Whether the baby lives or dies the process is going to affect you tremendously. Give yourself, your body, and the baby some credit because pregnancy is quite the metamorphosis. Everything changes.
I am going to describe what this pregnancy was like for me in my next articles. I saw no Dr.’s, no midwives. I want to share what pregnancy is like when you are the one responsible for it all. It was a completely normal pregnancy. Normal is a major factor when it comes to pregnancy and birth. I will try to explain things in a way that can help you understand normal. I hope you are pleasantly surprised by whatever my story inspires in you.